Saturday, October 3, 2015

he makes everything beautiful

“And we know that God causes everything to work together for
the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.”
Romans 8:28

Growing up in a house with one bathroom, meant I often sat cross legged on the floor of my pink bedroom curling my hair.  One particular morning as I rushed through my routine before school, I dropped my hot curling iron on my bare leg.  To this day, I still have a nasty scar on my leg forever reminding me of high school, bad hair days, and clouds of hair spray.  Every scar has a story. 

Fast forward twelve years later, and I am lying on the ultrasound table at my OBGYN office three months pregnant.  With absolutely no signs of a miscarriage, you can imagine my shock when I was told that my sweet baby was no longer alive.  Nothing can prepare you for these heart wrenching moments.  I grew numb in disbelief.  My horrible loss left an invisible scar on my heart, but none the less a scar.  And like every scar, this one has a story.

It was in the depths of my pain, my loss, and my heartache that I truly felt the Lord’s embrace so deeply. His nearness in the empty places of my heart, His strength as my body healed, and His comfort as I grieved. It was as though He was right there walking through the depths with me hand in hand. 

On a sunny afternoon several days following my miscarriage, I whispered this quiet and tearful prayer, “Lord, don’t waste this pain.  Use it to glorify your name. Redeem this pain.” Several weeks later, I received a text from a close friend who had also lost her sweet baby.  I could truly say, “I know your pain.” 

I pray as the Lord does a work in your heart and as you cry out to Him, that you will experience His presence and sense His willingness to comfort you.  Remember this truth….

Every scar tells a story.  One where we have known defeat, know suffering, know struggle, known loss, and have found our way out of depths. They remind us of the beautiful redemptive love of our Savior. May your scars always remind you that Jesus truly makes everything beautiful and uses all things for good.  Embrace Him; that is all He is asking.

* I am so honored that this writing was published in the Naptime Diaries Advent Devotional. You can purchase the devotional here. OXOX. 

Saturday, January 4, 2014

recipe: power bombs

hey friends! it's been a while. life sure is full when you have a four month old baby. full in the best way possible. i am dropping in to share one of my all time favorite recipes. hope you enjoy them as much as my little family does. 

Gluten and Dairy Free Powerbombs:

2 Cups Gluten Free Oats
1/4 Cup of Ground Flax Seed (2 of these)
1/4 Cup of Dried Cranberries (2 of these)
1/4 Cup of Dairy/Gluten Free Mini Chocolate Chips (i use the "enjoy life" brand) (2 of these)
1/4 Cups of  Gluten Free Oat Bran (2 of these)
1 Cup Walnuts
1 Cup Chickpeas (rinse and grind in the food processor or blender)
3 Bananas
2 Tablespoons Honey
1/4 Cups of Peanut Butter (2 of these)
1/4 Cups of Unsweetened Coconut (2 of these)

mix all these ingredients together with a blender and bake at 350 degrees for about 6 minutes. keep refrigerated.

you definitely can make these with regular oatmeal and oat brand. i just choose to make them gluten and diary free for a healthier option. 

i love to enjoy these with a delicious cup of coffee. hoping to blog more this year! 

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

maternity session:

so thankful for my bestie lisa from brightside photography. she did an amazing job capturing this precious moment in our lives. i will cherish these pictures forever. i am so overwhelmed with love for this sweet baby boy that i haven't even laid eyes on yet. 
i am understanding the love of a mama now. it's an overwhelming, deep, and breathtaking love. 
counting the moments till jude wes is in my arms. 

Saturday, July 20, 2013

5 years...

if moments in time could be frozen...this is one i would choose.
us...celebrating 5 years of marriage and our firstborn on the way. what a precious time this. i am feeling so blessed and oh so happy. i have an amazing husband and best friend. he is more then i deserve. i am so anxious to see him be a daddy to our son. what a precious gift from god. there are some big, exciting, and life changing days ahead for us, but i am savoring these last moments when it is just "us." the quiet moments, shared conversations in coffee shops, and the last few date nights before we become the three of us.

Thursday, July 18, 2013

a party for baby jude wes

here are a few snap shots from my baby shower. a big thank to amazing friend Lisa who took all these pictures. my mom and mother-in-law did an amazing job. we went with a vintage feel with lots of chalkboards, a different china plate at each setting, and lots of mason jars. my dad did an amazing job with the center pieces. all of the flowers came from his garden. 

on the menu was a salad bar, fresh fruit, and my favorite breads. i have so many favorite desserts that we decided to have lots of options...sugar cookies, payday bars, oatmeal cream pies, strawberry cake, coffee cake, and lemon cookies. yummy! 

this was such a special day for me. i felt so loved and special. i can't wait for jude to meet all the amazing people i have in my life. 

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

summer nights

i love summer. friday nights in the summer are always extra fun. this past friday we spent some time with our best friends who also happen to be having a baby. i can't tell you how fun it is to have a pregnant best friend. we both have baby on the brain 24/7 so it works perfectly! we had dinner at the b-spot, which has amazing burgers. and of course being pregnant and all, who can resist ice cream on a warm summer night. i am so cherishing this summer and enjoying every moment of being pregnant with my sweet baby boy.